Did you say books?

I have been slacking on my posts lately.  Well I had another appointment on Thursday.  Finally my incision is healed on the right side!!! I was able to get a fill finally!  I got half as much on my left than my right to help even out my size.  On my next fill (on Wednesday) I will be even.  That is so exciting.  I finally feel like I am moving forward.  I will have weekly fills for a little while until I am at a correct size and then will get my permanents.  I have to tell you all of my husband's autocorrect fail.  My appointment had taken a while (waiting for dr. to check my incision, have the nurse remove my sutures and then prepare everything for my fill.)  Well, my husband had sent me a text asking if I was still at the doctor's office.  I hadn't seen it until a half an hour after he sent it when I was on my way to check out so I just sent him a quick text telling him "yes" with plans to call him once I got to the car.  Well his next text was "are you at least getting bigger books?"  I laughed so hard when I saw that.   I was still laughing when I called him and told "no, my nook really always stays the same size!" 

This weekend I have realized why the doctor told me I could start to increase my activity, but not to do much with my arms still.  I decided to hold my sweet nephew yesterday (while I was standing, so all his weight was on my arms) and he was being so sweet and laying his head on my shoulder, I just couldn't put him down.  I also did some extra carrying and helping my boys play at the park.  So most of the afternoon I had a burning sensation under my arms that wrapped around to my back.  It is not horrible pain, but is uncomfortable and very distracting. 

Starting this July, I will be starting my next round of testing.  I will have an ultrasound done and a CA-125 blood test to check for ovarian cancer.  (Happy 30th Birthday, huh!)  I will be having these test every 6 months until I decide to have my ovaries removed.  I don't know why I am having a tougher time with this decision.  Cain and I are not having anymore kids (we already permanently did that).  I just am not ready to put myself into menopause.  So the other decision is to have testing every six months.  It is scary and I know I will be a nervous wreck every time I am waiting for results.  I will keep you updated after those tests.  The reason I am waiting for these tests is that it is recommended right now for women with HBOC (hereditary breast and ovarian cancer syndrome)  to have screenings for ovarian cancer every six months starting at age 30 (and my 30th birthday is not until July) until you have an oophorectomy (removal of ovaries). 

Also I received my email from KU's Breast Cancer Research thanking me for donating my breast tissue for research.  Prior to surgery I had the opportunity to have my tissue donated or not.  It was a no brainer to me to donate it.  This week it has made me think, how this procedure may have the benefit of not only saving my life, but possibly helping to find answers to help save someone else's life.  Just this past week a girl I went to grade school lost her mother to breast cancer (I believe) either way I know it was cancer.  I hurts to think about the pain cancer has caused this family and many others.  To know that it could have easily been my family going through this either mom or me.  I have had a struggle with this surgery, but I know I made the right decision. 

Here I am attaching a picture of what the process is with a tissue expander is:


Tomorrow my little man turns 5, so I am going to go now and finish enjoying his birthday weekend with him!