4 months today

I know I just updated a couple of days ago, but I realized today, it has been 4 months since my mastectomy!!! 4 months, wow!  So much has happened in the last 4 months.  I realize now, how quickly things have changed in a short amount of time.  There were times I thought my tentacles (no not testicles for all you dirty minded people)  AKA JP drains were going to be permanent attachments to my body. Or when I thought I was going to have my tissue expanders forever because my incision wouldn't heal.  Now I am fully expanded and will be having surgery in 2 months for my implants!!!  Time really does go fast.  I feel great now!!  This procedure really has been only a temporary inconvenience. 

Today, I stopped by and saw some of my old ER friends.  It has been over 2 years since I worked there.  It sure doesn't seem that long.  Also it made me think about, it has been over 5 years since the night that Dr. Hinkin spilled water on me and everyone joked about my water breaking, and then later that night Braydin decided to enter this world (5 weeks early). All my co-workers couldn't believe that happened.   It sure doesn't seem that long ago.  This has put a lot of this in perspective.  4 months is not a long time.  Or to think 6 months total will be my time frame from starting my journey (mastectomy to exchange surgery).  That isn't bad.  Then all this will be behind me and I won't have to worry about breast cancer. 

I look at my two boys 5 and almost 3.  My baby is almost three!! He has a really cool birthday 8-9-10.  And boy does he keep me busy!! He is head strong and a go getter.  Also a little clumsy like his mom.  He got his first black eye last week.  I know that won't be the last.  He is a talker like his mom.  He doesn't quit and the things he says are hilarious.  Tonight he said "mommy, I want to lay on your owies."  Luckily I am not too sore tonight, but he wanted to snuggle and for a long time he couldn't because of the pain. My 5 year old will be starting kindergarten this year.  He is my quiet one, more like his dad. 

Lately, I have met several people who have recently been diagnosed with breast cancer, diagnosed with BRCA mutation, or have known someone close to them with either diagnosis.  I have had a lot of people tell me how much they appreciate reading my blogs.  I have enjoyed this, it has been a great way for me to unwind and let my thoughts out.  I hope I am able to help people.  So many blogs I have read, have helped me along the way. 

I wish I had more entertaining stuff to write about, but I just felt like writing.  I still can't believe 4 months today since my surgery.  That is a big milestone. 

I am grateful I didn't have to face this decision before I was done having kids.  I did nurse the boys for the first year with both of them and glad I had that opportunity.  It would have been hard to make this decision before having kids, my heart goes out to all you girls that are/have faced that.  On a different more humorous note... I love funny boob pictures.....




(soon... real soon, until then I have dangerous boulders)


(This is how I hope to feel after my surgeries are all done!)

A show I love is new girl... Maybe because her name is Jess

(mine will never have to go to boob jail again!)

Smile.... Life is short, enjoy it!

Until next time..... KEEP CALM AND CHIVE ON.....
(love the chive website... always a great place for a good laugh)